My Me-ness !

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”― Dr. Seuss

 
There is always a distinction between being lonely and being alone. Akon taught me what is being lonely but I discovered the essence of being alone myself! I took the above photograph in May’ 2011 exactly at 5:28 am when I went to Edinburgh. When you live in the world 100 metres below you, you always crave to see the world 100 metres above you. And that is the very same thing that caught my attention in the midst of everything! Neural actions doubling their speed in my body, the decision was taken. This was it. I wanted to live alone up there. I wanted to grow my own vegetables and herd my own cattle. Pretty medieval, I know, but pretty peaceful too. I wanted to know what is so “Me” in me that was still undiscovered! That path of introspection was necessary for me to love myself the way I am. Aah how I wish someday I could live up there not forever but just for once. Just me and my Me-ness.:)

The Epic DeePee :D

Busy with uploading our Facebook profile pictures, have we ever wondered what picture God will be uploading as his DP if he happens to be in each one of our friend lists?! If you’re the Rockstar stud, then your God must be the punked up Rockstar too, with plectrums and a crashed guitar, tattoos inked all over plus not to forget the gravity defying hairstyle! If you’re the Barbie kinds, then your God must be having Pink Pyjama parties depicting panache at every eye blink and prim MAC make-up! If you’re the shopaholic types and have all the cash in this world to splurge on, then your God better be a Coco Chanel product- swooning over Jimmy Choos and Marc Jacobs!  And if you’re the like-all Apple products guy, then dude Steve Jobs is your God! For a Gadget freak, God being the proud owner of all the PSPs, must be making all the hell and heaven dwellers openly J. (J as in jealous)! If you’re the Geek or the Nerd, then trust me your God would be the only one believing that 100 percent attendance and your entire wtf thesis are some cool stuff –haha. No pun intended. Or perhaps intended. And if you’re very much in love then your God =Cupid. But if you’re a Nobody like me then your God must be the one with ancient jeans and dad-sized SpongeBob imprinted t-shirts, who would not be above you but sitting there - right beside you. The one who will like even your crummiest photos or updates on Facebook assuring you that atleast somebody likes a stupid like you! The one who won’t crave to be a Blackberry Boy just because you don’t own one. In short, he must be the best friend types who even at scorching 45 degree Celsius would prefer sharing hot chocolate instead of chilled soda with you just because you have a throat infection:)

Seventeen Again

Recently on one of my usual browsing sessions, I came across one of the surveys conducted by some psychologists who state that to make up for one negative action of yours; you need to undo it with seventeen positive actions! Shockingly the ratio is actually 17:1. Tuning it with my daily life I realized that it actually is true! For I accurately tend to remember one slap or thrashing given to me by my parents or siblings than I remember the 17 good things they ever did for me. Obviously the count is much more than 17 but I never bothered to notice them in front of that one hit. If that is the case, then even scientific calculators won’t be able to estimate the X 17 things I have to make up for! Kill me now. OhGod. Need to get working immediately. Okay bye. So remember to be good X 17 times you’re being bad :)

Hell, bring it on baby !

“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.”
- Douglas Adams

You want to do it. You don’t want to do it. But you’ve always wanted to do it. But then what is the point of doing it? Haha everyone has the exact situation. But remember there is always a point in doing anything. Maybe it’s the faintest dot but trust me there is! Infact even if you don’t do anything there still remains a point. Splitting minds or doubt isn’t a sign of being confused rather it emphasizes that Hello! I’m still rational because I prefer to think over it. World may call me fickle or indecisive but trusting my instincts is important, always! Yes what is wrong if I take time to decide? That can be maybe because I don’t want to jump into a thing without a rope to my rescue or maybe because whatever be the outcome I don’t want to regret my decision. That is the point here. Whatever you do, its YOUR decision and so even if you fail miserably or get a ‘L’oser placard hanging onto you, you still feel content and solvent. I realized a thing that made my life a lot easier – Before doing a thing instead of asking “Why I’m doing it?”, I’ve started asking “Why I’m not doing it?” ! And then when I just can’t answer the latter, I hear life shouting at me like a cheeky teenager-“Hell, bring it on baby!”

Cupcakes Vs Mint Chocolates

Not that easy. No, not at all. Call it karma or some kind of wiccans conspiring against us. Something wrong has to be there or maybe it’s the God-is-rude-to-you-phase! But still something holds us back; we still have that tiny cent a little metre feeling that things will turn out to be in our favour. If it isn't good at the moment it might be good for us in the long run. Because we have grown up to believe that whatever happens, happens for the best and if not best atleast better. Just keep on scrounging for that superlative in it but don’t compromise on anything apart from them! Just don’t because YOU deserve the best. And so you need to get the best out of it. But sometimes we can’t always wait and so come on, the thought that life is bad, real bad has to come and its plain natural.  So just snap out of it. So what if life is bad and it isn’t happening according to your whims, you need to be so good that you counter balance it and make it happen as you want. Is it okay? Is it humanly possible to just wait and be grateful for whatever happens? Is it really that easy to not always set back and just move on? If not completely yes is the answer, then why do we still have that hope? Why is it important to fail harshly in your life once and be engulfed in that despair of hating yourself to a point? But then again life isn’t about cupcakes; it is similar to those mint chocolates. The chocolates blend perfectly in our mouths but we need to be aware that mint too awaits us to taste it. Yes it is strong but it opens up our senses too. So learn to love mint. And then if life is cloudy, just wear you classy shades and act to feel the bright sunshine because then you know you’re good to go :)

What the Cute !

Sensitivity distinguishes my younger brother assuring the opposite direction of blood running through both of our veins for he gels so well with all the random animals while even now barking dogs scare the wits out of me. It is weird how the whole family shrieking over the presence of a rat in our kitchen, cursing the ugly looking species, made my brother cry! Crying at our ruthless demeanour he just said – ‘Why can’t you all just see how cute hoojoos look? How bad it must be feeling listening to you all!’ Well hoojoo pertain to the rats here, for this was the only word he could pronounce to describe a rat ever since he was four. He got so breathless that my parents took control by assuring him that they will harmlessly let him out of the house with some food and that was necessary for hygienic reasons. Overnight, the mere words he spoke darted through my heart for it left me to ponder how God must be feeling when we actually prove ourselves to be maniacs by overlooking the much more ‘cuter’ aspects of life and just criticizing the less cuter jolts of life! Sometimes how we need to let the pouring rain touch our faces before the joyous feeling of witnessing the rainbow can engulf us. Sometimes how a rodent makes you realize that the reason why God doesn’t always put all the sweet things in your basket is just because he cares way too much for you to not become diabetic. :)